Always want to be something that's not right here, not right now.
The worst Zen student ever, I must be perfect.
Never really picking up the great matter, but really looking for the great answer.
If the great answer ever had a face would it be easier to forget?
Is that like, "If you see the Buddha on the road, kill him"?
Can you not kill what you can't see?
What's with all the killing...